19 September 2006

Alhamdulilah For Today!!

Reached my workplace late.
Why? Searching for my casing.
Found it in my bag, which i brought it to workplace.
Haizz.... Silly right?? haha!!
Guess what.. My colleague wants me to tutor his daughter..
AARRGGHH...!!!
Come On! I'm not that smart ass!!
He told me that her IQ's tip-top..
Haizz.. how am i suppose to tutor the girl?
I'm not good in explaining and my O's not that superb.
Borderline, Average.
I'm just another average joe under the street lights.
Wondering around all the time.
Think of this and that which sometimes sound insane.
Well, I'm sCrazzy. What do you expect?
I wanna be a good guy...
But it usually end me up into a silly one.
Anyway, I'm proud of myself for being like this.
Absurd? Yeah, but it's true. hehe!!
Sometimes, being alone is the best thing you can do.
"Best In The World", like my mentor. Haha!
Do i sound like I'm happy?
Hmm.. Maybe.. But, what's the reason behind it??
Arrgh.. I don't wanna think about it.
"As Long As You're Happy With It, It's Fine", another phrase in the yard.
Well.. that's me! hee..

So silly being sCrazzy, so silly being me!
Haha!!

p/s: to the 'sender', i believe you... a chance for me?

11:30:00 PM
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18 September 2006

Whatever I feel, Whatever it is, God knows! Allah's All-Knowing!

Attachment for the day...
Received a sms from the 'writer'. Had a short sms in the morning.
Big Smile for it! :)
Hope 'writer' did the best for the prelim. i believe u can.
Today's attachment was not unusual. Same old thing.
Did have my lunch cos' i wasn't in the mood.
Was thinking about something.. my past...
About my relationship before...
The thoughts sank my mood down.
Now, Im thinking about you.
Who are you? Im still uncertain to have you.
You called me 'dear'. Im confused.
What was intention back then?
I just hate people get punk with my feelings.
What am I? A Marionette of yours?
I don't mean to be mean. I don't point that you're playing with it.
No harm intended. Advice stated.
I want to be nice. Be right for you!
If you want it, treat it like it's fragile.
Ditching me? let it be now.
Maybe, i just went too far.
The fact is, don't play around with words. Use it Appropriately.
That's what I've been thinking of today.
Sorry 'writer'.

I just want my usual self back! If there's a chance given, i'll choose to be with you.
Alright, we're just friends..

8:33:00 PM
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17 September 2006

All Praises To The All-Mighty for Everything!

What's up with exhausting thingy, sCrazzy?

Well, for the whole week, i've been practising for my RYC showcase.
Tiring, of course!
Almost everyday after attachment, got together and move it.
I'm so damn tired.
Also, not forgetting, help out with the Fityan Orientation Programme.
Went all out as a logistic member to assist Hamzah Obek.
Did some helping for the games as facis.
Tiring...
Dashed to 104 (my session ground) for practise, awhile.
Rushed to the RYC tents, with Stylus to work out with Ust Sufian.
haha!! we tried to adapt to the floorings and stuffs..
Stylus left me but sCrazzy stayed at the RYC tents with fityans.
Helped them with this and that and whatever i can laa...
my eyes were so damn heavy...
"how am i suppose to wake tomorrow morning for madrasah?"
chilled out with hamzah and acit till' 3am.
Hamzah sent me home, a cab were hired.
Sunday morning, got up for Madrasah.
Shoot! Tired.. I pulled through..
Hurried to 104 for a final practise before the show itself.
After everything's over, helped the rest to clear up.
Then, some fityans hopped on to a lorry.
We're off to Al-Iman to unload the stuffs.
Fuhh... tired...

Hold On!! Where's the exciting part?

Here it goes..
After attachment, practise per normal but Stylus pulled through together as one.
We had fun practising though it's intensive for us.
Unity was there. Well done!
So, let's move on to Fityan Orientation Programme.
We laughed, we joked and we go, La-la-la-la....
Some of the guys, had some internal jokes between us.
Damn funny!! hahahaha!!
For my Madrasah, my Ustazah scolded me not to sleep but end up crapping with my friends.
Somehow, i was absurd at that time...
Well, Stylus and myself performed to our standard,we got 'extras'..
Then, we changed and did stuffs together. Unity again bro... Thumbs Up!!
Upon reaching Ghufran, helped out to unload the things, did it very fast!
On the way to Al-Iman, the guys went, La-la-la-la....
best thing is, we had the Ad-Dukhan session while boarding the lorry.
Rahman's crap was the craziest after all... Fish in the belly of a lamp post!!!
Before i forget, the writer started a conversation for the sms..
to spice up my mood, the writer called me something special for the second sms... Wowww!!!!

Well... everything's done is worth the effort contributed!!
Alhamdulilah, Allah answered my prayers for giving me the strength though still shagging throughout.
So, everything happened for a reason... God knows Best!!

p/s: anw, to the writer, im the 'guy under the street lights'... thank you!

10:55:00 PM
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16 September 2006

Alhamdulilah To My All-Mighty God!!

All praises for Him for still allowing me to stay in NP.
Actually, i've passed my repeated module.. So happy!
I felt that my doa's have been answered. Alhamdulilah.

I do not know why i felt so emo today..
What's Up Dude? Why aren't you cool?
I felt sorry for my close buddy, rahman.
His granddad passed away yesterday. (May Allah Bless Him,Insyallah)
(Al-Fateha)
Secondly, i felt really low as a God's slave.
I observed the world around.
Masyallah! His Creation! Allahuakbar!
I just can't wait for Ramadhan!
The fastings, the feelings, the tarawikh, the imams and etc...
Oh God, the Most-Merciful and Oft-Giving;
Please give me the chance to atleast feel the Event of Ramadhan!
Also, I'm a little stressful on the showcase.
Had to crack some juices out of my brain.
Well, i'm cool with it.
Lastly, I read something. It touched sCrazzy.
I know it hurts the writer. I sensed it.
I just feel like changing the event of the story.
I wanna help. I felt the pinched too.
Advised the writer at the MSN.
The reply was a laughter. Ain't no joke!
Indeed, i was very serious.
Left the writer with a salam and my words of a failure.
Still, i won't give up on reaching my goals. Never!

Till then, sCrazzy signing off with a frown!
No jokes, No laughter, sCrazzy's ain't a clown!

p/s: if u tink u're the writer, im the 'guy'. remember, dun give up hope on guys!!!

1:04:00 AM
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12 September 2006

sorry for my grammar and stuffs... forgot to check. hehe.. anw, im sick ok??

9:27:00 PM
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Sick.Sick.Sickening!
Fine! Im sick ok?

9/11/06
Wah...!! I got sick on the Sept 11 Anniversary... Haha!!
hey! im serious. im sick laa...
woke per normal was ok for me. slept in the bus the whole journey..
woke from the nap, my head felt so heavy, feels like asking the forklift to carry up to the 3rd floor office.. hehe!!
im sick ok??!!
haiyaa... i get myself to the Ansar 14, under repair, with my colleague.
We shut our eyes from 9am till 11.40am.
it was kinda slow for the time to pass each hour... (time goes by.. so slowly..)
my sinus rained down.. haiya... im sick!
bad sore throat roaring good time! ;(
i stayed in the office the whole day... boring.. big time!!
strepsils doesnt work for the me, but worsen my condition.
(time goes by.. so slowly..)
i cant wait to get to the mediacorp..
wonder how the event gonna be like... hmm...
took cab there. traffic was oklaa... not so good, not so bad..
still, im sick!
weehoo... Mediacorp, i've gotcha!! so, waited awhile till' the show starts.
few AS-attention seeker went rowdily.. so..... annoying!!
im just there to give a moral support for Stylus! weehoo..!!
met Jone a.k.a Usher... hahaha!! (what about The Faith?) hhee...
reached home late...
my condition worsen... haiya...!!

12/9/06
Again, woke as usual.. nothing happened.
got off from the bus, my headache ached alotss...!!
endure.. but, im stil sick!!
followed mentor onboard vessel 538/7..
im movement were unstable.. but, i stood firm and moved on..
but.. the smokes from the welding and grinding choked me..
also,the vessels rocks heavily... (oh god.. it's getting me up-side-down!!)
told him that im unwell and requested not to go to the yard for today..
he understood and wants me to drink red bull...
for my lunch, piping department and myself went to teban.
weehoo..! but, im still sick!! get it?
during the ride, mentor asked whether i've any GF..
i answered quickly, NO!
he asked me why.. replied him that im busy with my activities.. no time! (yeah rite!)
we carried on with the conversation..
i wondered why he kept on asking regarding my status.. (anyone with ans?)
hmm... after lunch.. weather was scorching!!
still.. im sick laa...!!!
mentor let me sleep in the container...
from 1.15pm to 5pm..
yuuhooo...!! nice..!!
packed up and head home...

so... the problem is.. im sickeningly sick..!!
hmm.. i accept this pain for Him(Allah)
hoping that with this pain im being through will help to clear my previous sins. Amin!

P.s: why aren't you replying to my messages? i still wanna be your friend.. honest!

8:35:00 PM
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09 September 2006

Salam Alaik to All the Believers!!

Aite, it's been a week since my last entry.. Wahh..!! busy to the maximum extravaganza like the 'best in the world'.. i aint no 'standby'.. im doing my attachment. Up and down the scaffoldings daily.. For the early part of this week, i learnt alot! Pipes! Flanges!! And Launching!! weehoo..!! I managed to get onboard the vessel 528, a new-built vessel, to dock by the pontoon... Small leakage, but the SRM get a hell of a noise! " We, the piping department don't go gugu-gaga, why the SRM must kanchiong one?? Kanina!" said my piping mentor. I met new colleagues and conversate with them like 'the best in the world'.. haha!! My piping knowledge grew more and more each day. Thank him and thank Allah!! Alhamdulilah!!
This week kinda suay for me.. y?? haaaaaa...!!!! check this 2 event..!
Wed - 06/09/06
Went to ASL per normal. My colleagues told me to accompany one of them to the yard, cos' he wanna inspect something. i changed to my overalls with the boots and walked out of the office with my helmet by my side. so, i opened the door to the stairs, which leads to the ground floor before the yard. i stood still and looked around the yard while at the top of the stairs. "where's my friend?",i whispered to myself. Suddenly, toot!! what's it?!! i felt my forehead.. ohhh goshh...!! bird dropping!! i hate this! I covered small part of my hair, my forehead and my spectacle frame. So, i off to the gents for some clean up.
Fri - 08/09/06
After Friday prayers, i rushed back to office. I didn't change to my overalls cos' im lazy to go to the yard and also, the piping mentor wasn't around. he got something on and was on leave... so, i get to chill out in the office, doing nothing. haizz... Then, i went for a tea with my colleagues. hmm... there were 5 of us. so, they smoked outside the canteen. i was under a shelter alone while the others were around the shelter. But, i don't know somehow, another bird dropping dirt my shirt. It came down from the above, i don't know how and why it had onto my favourite shirt. Why doesn't it fall on the others when they were not under the shelter. Washed the "kmdksfnidmfifm" off....

Haizz.... Do the birds hate me so much? I aint disturb them... Give me a break aite?!

There's something in mind that i wanna share. A very different conversations from usuals with my mentor and another worker.
mentor: Azra'ie, Uncle will be on leave this friday. So, you'll follow Uncle Din.
me: okay, cik!
mentor: Uncle need to claim for my custody this friday arr. Two of my child will be home with me.
worker: so, you going to get your children laa??
mentor: Ya! Even the groceries i have to buy for them. I give them allowance and etc.
me: (nodding) Uncle, your children have grown up is it??
mentor: Yeah.. there's one of your age laa.. okay, did u watch Anugerah Skrin on Suria previously??
me: (pretending) ouh ya! why?
mentor: My daughter joined the competition. Erfa.. Erfa Fatima.
me: (pretending again) ouh yes!!
mentor: why? you wanna get to know her ar??
me: no laa, Uncle.
mentor: i don't think you suit her. She's tall, alike my height. I think you're too short for her.
me: (pretend to smile) hehe! (he's thinks im a desperado kosong hero kambing zero koro-koro sambal burger bodoh? Excuse me! Im someone with pride and honour ok! But Im not an egoistic fellar.)
Then, the mentor carried on talking nonsensically. I kept quite. haizz... I aint a cheap guy. I realli don't the comment. haiz... Oh God, please let him think before he says anything unneccesary to others!
Attachment's corner is over for now!!!

For other activities, i spent a lil' of my time with them. Thank Allah that He gave me strength to give a helping hand to the youth of Ghufran during the Nisfu Syaaban. It was indeed a successful event. Alhamdulilah! And, Applause for you guys!
Then on Friday, had a 'meeting' for the sub-comm and exco for Fityan. Wasn't very serious then cos' im too tired to be serious for the mean time. But, i don't know somehow, the fish gets excited to see me. E.g, i entered the ghufran office on the nisfu syaaban, the first thing i heard was, "Hi Azra'ie!!!". I know it's her cos' i recognise the fishy sound. hehe!! Also, i msged raudhah, asking her whether i need to attend the meeting. Before, we end our messaging, she typed " Liyana mentioned. Azra'ie's coming?! yeay!"
Hehe!! Atleast, i feel welcoming by a fish. hehe!!!
Sorry liyana. i don't me to talk bad ab0ut you. oooppss!!!!
After the meeting, i hanged out with the 'left over' guys! haha!!

Before i end this i wanna share my words(hehe!!) :-

Ouhkayy..!! Once ever had a dream when I was a lil' kid
Counting day by day, counting it with every beat
Sweet crap rapper crapping down the streets
Influencing other kids for a duo acting superbly stoopid
Start it off with A-Z then to Mr. Azz
Boasting like a pro at the backyard attempt to kick some arse
Intertwined lips of mine non-stop,tip-top humming, finding tunings
So sickening remembering the past doping silly things
Practice's neccesary, practice unncessarily
Experience going through transformed me into sCrazzy
So, you get me? You get what I mean?
Can't you see, my dribbles aint obscene
Now, I'm bucking back a pencil, expand the veins
Beyond the brain, driving it insane
I write short sweet poetry not for a rich man's son
No son of a gun, for an unintended someone
Oh man..!! That bootie when she boogie, she amaze me, Im so crazy
Back to me! I gotta hold the description, just another introduction for my entry!
La Pompo Wala Takunsi!! Excuse me!!

That's it folks!! So, i'll conclude this with, "is it cool or no cool??"
Salam alaik to the believers again...!!
tll next time...

4:08:00 PM
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02 September 2006

May peace be upon to all the readers...!!

On the 1st Sept 06', azz skipped his attachment for a day. he took a leave for a medical check-up held at CGH. it's for the result for my illness faced 2weeks ago.

"there's nothing in your blood and urine test. You're fine. No problem," the doctor informed.
i replied," ok!"
the doctor added," if there's any pain or similar case should be happening, u can give a call to this clinic F."

then, he made a check on me to be assure of any pain, if there's any.
haizz... again, im not being admitted to the hospital. No negative thoughts purrleessss.... i prefer to admitted cos' i like the ambience not the pretty nure. im weird due to my history whereby, im always been sent to hospital cos' of my asthma. i went about 3x/mth. it was a challenge for me to survive as i have to struggle to stay i this world.

ok, that was back then. back to reality! i hanged out at the container at ghufran after the friday prayers till 6+pm. im certainly sure that i miss hanging out there since i got busy lately. Sorry Fityan dudes and dudettes!! be reassured that i'll be with you all again soon.
I wanna apologise to Ust ahmad and Ust Jamaluddin cos' i can't commit myself as a mosque assistant this time cos' im having my attachment. :)
to my bros of stylus, my apologies for my absence. i just need a space for myself for the meantime cos' my attachment weakened me.

For the end of the week, i spent time with the ghufran buddies..
weehoo....!!! nice of them to entertain my crap. apologies to offer to those who ought to be 'victimised'... hehe!!
Nal, Nas, Helfi, Isa, Hamzah, Hilmi, Lyana, Raudhah, Haza and myself were creating a ruckus at Afghan. We saw local comedians having their dinner at the Afghan. But, i think, i'm a better comedian than them cos' i'm a street comedian to my fellow buddies. Non-stop craps and laughters. Pity Haza cos' she's always been my victim. It's not that u're naive, but you're indeed a nice person to interact with. For Lyana, it's a different case. A fish lost in the city of Tampines. Imagine that!! ahah!! Sorry lyana, joking corner... haha!!

That's it la Azz...!!! Zip it will you??!! alrite-alrite.... im done with the nonsensical ideas..
I'm sleeping ok? U get it?? im working in the morning laa...... haizz...

To others that i hardly hang out with, my apologies.
I love u guys. I love 'siti' too... I've got loads of friends but a single of myself can't afford to entertain all.
I'm hoping to entertain you better than the rest,'siti'.
Life.Is.So.Amazing.
(wanna know who's siti? wait up till' my next blog...hehe!)

"Cinta ada dalam hati setiap manusia. Carilah ia di situ....."

7:53:00 PM
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